My kids are 15, 13, and 10. Just a couple of weeks ago, they were 6, 4, and 1. Time has gone by so fast! There is no time to waste!
I have been talking a lot about health issues, to the point where I’m pretty sure the people around me are tired of hearing about it. But this is a part of my life. Unfortunately, my oldest child is mostly grown and I have been struggling with anxiety, depression, and discouragement due to (unbeknownst to me until recently) food issues for most of his life. He probably thinks it will never get any better than this. I myself wonder if it ever will! There is hope, though. God keeps waking me up in the morning and nudging me to keep going, just in case today is the day that all of this trouble is made worth it.
And yet I worry. I worry that my frequent lack of energy and ambition will cause my sons to lack vision, enthusiasm, and motivation for their own futures, their own callings from God on their lives. I also worry that I am stuck in a rut that saps the life out of everyone around me, especially my family. That is why I appreciate Sally Clarkson’s blog. Something she said yesterday refreshed my soul and made me want to throw open the windows and doors, fill the mop bucket with hot soapy water, and mop the gloom off everything. Speaking about her daughter, Sarah, whose birthday was yesterday:
She has not had an easy life–as a matter of fact, there were so many obstacles in her life so many years in a row, that I once said to the Lord, “If you don’t start being nice to her, she isn’t going to keep believing in you!”
And yet, God knew what He was doing. He was deepening her soul so that it could be reflective of His light and life and beauty.
God knows what He’s doing! He gave my children the mother he thought best for them. Wonder of wonders! I am best for my children!
Thank You, God, for the reminder that You are in control!! Please give me everything I need to plod on through this most recent series of challenges, and to do it in a way that breathes life into this family and points them to life’s greatest adventure – walking with and serving You wholeheartedly, before another moment passes. In the precious and holy name of Jesus I pray, Amen.